My Mother likes Dangerous Men

My mother likes dangerous abusive men and gives them creedence so they can overpower my brother and I.

I like dangerous situations where I feel some excitement like with activities like bungee jumping where you feel like you are alive, but maybe that's not really danger.

THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE A BIG ONE ABOUT MY SOCIOPATHIC UNCLE

So I am having a hard time lately, live with my Sociopathic Uncle who by the way never went into work and still got paid for it hansomely while sitting on his a$$ and doing drugs. So I have a hard time finding work. Found a job that I worked at yesterday from 5am to 11pm at night. I came home for 1 lunch break and everyone was out of the house, but my Uncle.

He trashed my and my brother's room by throwing everything all over the place. Slammed my $200 vacuum in front of my bed. He took things with dirty water, soap and threw these things on my bed that soaked my bed and threw everything all around me and my brothers room. My bed was all wet and there were bugs flying around the room. He took the garbarge bucket and threw it in my brothers closet on top of his clothes.

And my brother just confronted my mother and she said you have to be careful it's my Uncles apartment and look at what the neighbor just did to his 19 year old daughter. He always kicks her out and they are both addicts. So than my brother says well he is trying to go to school and get his life together what is the 19 year old girl doing meaning that my brother is nothing like the 19 year old girl next door. And my mother keeps going on that My Uncle and this girls 19 year old father (BOTH MALIGNANT SOCIOPATHIC ABUSERS) can do whatever they damn well f--cking please beecause they are paying the rent and own the house/or pay rent. And my brother is like so if someone pays the rent than  that gives them the right to abuse you.

And than it turns to me and how my side of the room is a mess and my brother can't walk on that side of the room. So now it has turned to blaming me for his actions so I have to jump around to try and solve them for angry homo king p-nis man. And figure out what to do with my stuff which by the way my brother and I and all over our belongings are confined to this one room.

And the landlord is like the apartments a mess so your kids have to clean up the place or your kids have to clean up the room. They say nothing to my king pen-s man Uncle.

She wants my brother to now sit down with a maniac that just trashed our room and have a reasonable conversation with him. The word sick doesn't even begin to explain this.

All I can think is revenge. I hope someone beats the shit out of my Uncle, I hope he gets raped up the a$$ till he bleeds out--He actually might like that. Trash his room and his stuff and pour nasty shit all over his bed. I wonder do people have a right to destroy your property even though they pay rent. Also he should go to jail for what my Uncle did to my Aunt when she was 6 and see how tough he is when other inmates find out what he has done because he needs to feel the pain and torture he has caused. I don't think you can even ruin his stuff and hurt him because he is a disgusting homo pig that doesn't value anything.

If Jeffrey Dahmer was my Uncle and cut up someone's body because he couldn't open the door of his nephews room in the right way and there was a tiny vaccum behind the door which caused him to rage and go after people. My mother would say well you have to cater to Jeffrey Dahmer he has a point. You have to talk to Uncle Jeffrey and reason with him and listen to what he has to say.

Towards the end my Oldest Uncle wanted to hire this Uncle I am living with at his company. I would have luved to see this so this Uncle I am living with would trash his brother's company, office and property just to see how my oldest Uncle would react. But when my oldest Uncle offered him a job because they were both old, ugly, relaxed and old fuddy duddies my sociopathic Uncle that I live with turned it down.

My mother likes dangerous men and intense danger, but I am not the danger they are.

On Being Human

Hate the feeling or idea that I have to be or feel guilty of anything that makes me human or even just having anything that makes me human.

TRANS AND BI-POLAR MOOD DISORDER

This trans guy has bi-polar disorder.
His anger is like a maniacal rage and even when he went to the store last night and came back when he comes in and slams the door and comes in the room I have knots in my stomach of fear like when you are dealing with a raging drunk.
Than all of a sudden the next day they are calm.

That's the difference between normal anger and bi-polar anger. With Normal Anger people just get angry and don't instill fear and have others walking around on pin and needles like the bi-polar person is a monster. With bi-polar maniacal rages they want to control the other person and instill fear in them because they are maniacal narcissist that are afraid of everything in the world and everything in life and use this anger to scare other people and control. And than they deal with strangers as if nothing every happened in a calm mannner like that Norman Bates guy. It is completely psychotic.

I can't handle it.

I need to distance myself from these morons

They always want you to be thinking about them and focusing on them and their angry king penis man lands and fearing them. It's got to be hard to have a mind like they have.

YESTERDAY, and MORE TRANS BULLSHIT

I can't cope with Trans penis men anymore or angry king shit men. After trans or real men go on hormonal maniacal rages I feel like a brick wall hit my head and it gives me a migraine for a few days.

It's really too much for me to deal with 2 raging homosexual maniac angry king shit men. And the trans guy gets angry because his cat shit on his slippers so he starts making a face like he wants to destroy the cat or anyone around him and says "Do I smell shit? Do I smell shit? and than he starts moving around really fast and going back and forth and ranting and raving and crying like a lunatic and gettin angry with no brains in his head. All week without the lunatic trans person it was peaceful until Friday. It takes too much emotional energy out of me to deal with them. His mother blames his anger and hysteria on the medication, but it's more than the medication. He is hostile and in complete turmoil and I really can't handle it or him.

When HIS cat shit on his slippers yesterday morning he got really arrogant and smug and tried to blame it on me saying that "I should put the cardboard in door so the feral cat doesn't get in in the middle of the night and attack his cat." So at first I am nice and than I tell him to go fuck himself it's his cat. An he says "Well next time I should let the cat shit in your sneakers." That's how much of a motherfucker he has become since this trans bullshit.

I need my own place, but I was thinking of waiting until I have to renew something else and than trying to ask someone for help to get my own place. Maybe I can find a roommate to help me pay the bills. I was happy until he came back yesterday from classes all weak.

Now I am nervous and angry after dealing with this shithead.

Pissed because his Romantic Evening was ruined.

My Ex-boss was latin. One morning the manager of the store didn't show up to open the store and was a few hours late so we the meager employees had to call the boss and he was pissed because we ruined his romantic evening.  Americans are not like this maybe.

So since men in N had to have everything and ruin my one romantic happy free encounter they can go screw themselves now.

Trans People are constantly depressed, moody as f--ck and on a super high.

So this trans person put me down twice today. I was happy yesterday got out and I was around people that were happy and productive and than I mention an idea to him and he instantly gets negative and depressed and puts it down. It's really hard to be around this sth-t. I can't cope with it.

He wakes up on a high and the instant I say 2 words to him he starts talking really fast about nothing.

It's so hard to be happy and productive around manic depressive morons. I don't want to be around them anymore.

So even when they are not angry and abusing you there is something really off and disturbing about them. They are miserable and want to bring you down.

I just have to run it's too much stress for me.