NARCISSIST

So my mother wants to do something and I am supposed to jump right than and there. I tell her I am hot and she waves her hand in a superior motion and said everyone has moodswings.
What is wrong with me telling her I am hot. Is that a moodswing when it is 90-100 degree and you don't have an air conditioner or fan on indoors. Because she caters to my moody angry uncle she wants me to cater to her.
More like he's moody and she wants to blame me which kind of makes me angry.

Passive Aggressive Homosexuality in Uncle.

I guess Narcissist are also angry king penis men with no brains in their heads that need to displace their homosexual angery. Let me explain. I live with tons of them all over.
My Uncles angry and has no brain functions. I am sitting with my back to the wall and he's angrily using a leaf blower now to blow leafs that aren't there and than he turns it up really loud and bangs it against the wall. (he wants to make other people nervous and angry with no brains in their heads). So he bangs it against the wall of course it upsets me; he's a grown 60 something year old faggot homo man. As a boomer he stayed home from work all the time. He never goes out he's terrified of people except for his two homo friend that he supports with his full paycheck(he has no intercourse with these 2 men) so they abuse someone and he needs to abuse someone else with his angry passive aggressive homo moron mentality. Was happy yesterday and yes it upsets me. But it's weird it's like he's trying to scare someone because he's an angry dominant homo or make someone shaky and angry because that's how he feels and it works somewhat until I sit somewhere else. I guess he needs attention. Now that I moved from where I was sitting homo man stopped using the leaf blower isn't that pathetic. Homo man started again. He's the only one that can be a dominant angry king penis man boss.
It's weird it's like he's angry and afraid of poking me, but he needs to do it for a king pensi man challenge and attention.
This is why I hate my older uncles; not once did they tell their younger brother you have to get up off your ass and go into work. Not once did my older uncles tell their grown ass brothers ass off with their famous silent generation slogan - "You want to eat, you got to work."
It's like when he tries to poke me into responding it's wierd he is afraid to do it because I feel both fear and anger coming off of him. I guess this is what narcissist do to feel alive.
They want someone to yell at them like kids? to get into an angry homo king shit argument.

Narcissist need to make you seem like the crazy one.

So I get upset and angry because my mother is touching my stuff and my mother insults me by saying she doesn't know what the fukc I am on lately which hurts me.  But my brother is a perfect angel. There's something with her my mother that no one can get upset at you or you make them think they are crazy. It's all her, it's all her problem. She needs to lie about me to make herself look good and the same thing with my brother. It's like a little cult. Those are my mother's flying monkeys and her circus. They don't respond to logic.

It hurts when your mother is doing this to you and you don't get the approval of your mother. But, I guess she is now doing to me what she did to W-my brother when her ex boyfriend beat him as a kid and she made him think he was crazy now she is trying to hurt me and do the same things to me to hurt me like I don't know what's wrong with you lately.

The only way you can get sympathy from a narcissist is if you are weak which plays into the whole mauchausen syndrome because Narcissist love to be the savior maybe that's why being a savior gives them a sense of omnipotent power. I don't think you can ever be well adjusted or better off than they are.

They are egolomaniacs or megolomaniacs and immediately attack you and attack your character.

This is my book that I will write while I am stuck here. If I get out and get my own place than it's fine. I won't have anything to write about anymore and I will be happy.

Just want to get away from them.

My Mother and brother are Narcissist.

The narcissist likes to terrorize and instill fear in other people because it's the only way to know how to react. My brother gets hysterical and abuses me mentally and emotionally, than my mother gets hysterical, defends my brother and attacks me and this leaves me a nervous wreck. I can't cope with it and it's too much stress. I can't cope with either of them. I feel traumatized by all of this which is why I am trying to find my own house.

Not to mention the stupidity of my family. My Aunt is a Narcissist also and she hates me and needs my uncle to do everything for her AND ONLY HER. In college I panicked and sent my Uncle a letter about my financial situation hoping to get some help in some way. As soon as they got the letter, my Aunt or his wife tore it up so he wouldn't see it. That's bad so he never got it. It's wierd though because her philipino nephew needed someone to suck his dick and mommy was no longer around to suck his dick for him so My Aunt tried to push him on me.

It's also like Narcissist ignore reality and they basic social paremeters of reality in this case because they have lotso monies and are able to ignore people and ignore reality. What I mean is they don't need anyone. In real life people have to depend on eachother somewhat, but not in their worlds. I give you some food and you give me some money. In their worlds they expect people to give them everything without even having a thought of helping someone out if you can and have the ability to do for someone else.  It's like they are hard driven to only think of themselves at all times no matter what. It's not reality and there is no excuse for it.

Back to my Aunt and her nephews and their insatiable needs. For 16 years I asked everyone for a job including my Uncle and got absolutely nothing, nada. Everytime I asked I instantly got ignored. So 16 years and I HAVE NOTHING, no job, marriage, no kids. All of a sudden it's Christmas and ugly phillipino man needs his cokc sucked and starts hitting on me at family Christmas gatherings and I want to oh nevermind. My Uncle gave his wives nephew a job and he was making damn good money had his own marriage, life, food whatever the fukc he wanted. I wonder if he waits until he is comforatable and his cokc is soft and floppy before he goes to the dentist or pay his mortgage. Because according to my Uncle and family they are so great they ignore their feelings.

My Uncle The Maniac

I have to find a way out or a place. I have seen some houses, but not sure which way to go. My Uncle is a maniac and I can't even shower or bathe in peace without him acting hsyterical about something which makes me nervous because I don't know if he is going to do something crazy like break the door down and it makes me a nervous wreck. I just can't. Can't do anything in this house like even try to make money or do any businesses or freelance. Than my Uncle talks to his gay lovers that he gives money to and he's extra sweet to them on the phone. I am sick of my family. I desperately need my own place.

ANONYMOUS COMMENTS ONLINE THAT I FIND INTERESTING.

These are some comments I can also relate to narcissist. I do not place the person commented in case they prefer being unknown, but just comment and or DM me and I will give you credit for your wise words.

Most Narcissist are not free and happy and so they don't want you to be free and happy.

"Is that what you think? Did you know many sociopaths have no conscience and do not fantasize..they do things to helpless creatures or people because they feel most connected to very strong emotions like fear and anger. Violence brings that out." -anonymous commenter

"I dont agree, I think humans who have empathy but choose to turn a blind eye when confronted with an injustice or evil are worse. Most people dont care for others unless they are somehow involved and it directly hurts themselves. you dont have to have empathy in order to do the right thing. oh, btw schizoids dont feel empathy, but they still have a sense of justice. schizoids are really sensitive people but due to trauma they split off their feelings...just as an example to show you that not all people who dont feel empathy are bad or evil :)" anonymous commenter and anonymous author.

Please let me know if these are your comments and want me to put your name here will gladly do it. I find some truth and honesty in these comments and hoping they help people dealing with this insanity.

Wouldn't also the psychopath be only wanting a reaction an anger and to make the other person unhappy which I don't get how that can bring you joy. Even little kids was a cookie to make them happy. With Narcissist it's like misery makes them happy or at least content and satisfied.

More Trans Bullshit and how they are Narcissistic and Schizo

For me I am codependent and I slip right back into it when they act nice. You can't trust them. My brother has turned into a full blown narcissist and now I am the scapegoat and people say I shouldn't compare, but he acts like Nellie Olsen. He has an attitude after his cat that he's ignoring while he is on social media tries to attack and scratches me so instead of controlling his cat he gets even with me with an attitude and puts a 40 pound weight on the middle of floor and puts his cat dish on my side. Go to tell my mother and she says we both need to talk about it. When I was 13 and had an attitude and mood swing after a while my mother slapped me and that was it. It was done, but now my mother is kissing my brother's ass with his fake hormonal mood swings. And my mother threathens me and tells me if you don't want to work things out(when someone's abusing you). There's the door, there's the door, there's the door. Get the fuck out. She ignores whatever he does. And now he is all smug and high and mighty with his fake homo friends on social media that he fucked with me. And he threw it in my face how my life isn't going anywhere because that is what I told him. Nellie Olsen was sly and knew how to play people that's why my brother reminds me of her. And then after they are done with having their attitude and abusing the living sh---t out of you and causing you problems. They act sly and cold and callus. This is what trans people are really like.

Now he goes outside after playing a sick game and says to me mother. "I wasn't listening because this was all her" in his great homo voice. I don't want to listen to the rest and just focus on what I have to do.

He goes outside to talk to my mother like he is the perfect child sort of like Norman Bates. Now he is sitting outside with mommy like he didn't do anything wrong. When he acts nice I just have to remember these moments and why I need to get away. I know Narcissist do everything to get attention and that is their end goal. Once they get the attention they are craving than they are satisfied.

MORE TRANS CONTROLLING BULLSHIT, IT'S MY SIDE OF THE ROOM and why Trans shouldn't have kids.

I can't even put on my sneakers without a fake woman aka trans putting a 40 pound weight in the middle of the room and blaming attacking me. I just asked him for 5 seconds to put  on my sneakers. And when I ask him to move the 40 pound weight he just says so next time I can push your humidifier the fukc over.

Trans people shouldn't have kids. They want to dominate, control and play games and they are narcissistic little twats that are worse than a 5 year old and they would argue with their little kids that it's their side of the room and than beat the shit out of them. No they are too fukced up to have kids. Let someone else deal with the angry, controlling, abusive moody moron behavior where they are adamant and don't give into anyone.

He or fake she sits doing nothing all day on social media, but they don't want you to do anything either. Even when I said if I get out of here and get my own place he was still blaming me for stuff.

At least my family got to have full shit wiped off their arses and a full pleasure non stop.  At the same time the ones with the most money that never helped anyone don't look to happy.