WHAT PISSES ME OFF?

I mentioned I can't be myself anymore where I live and I don't think people. So I don't think they get it.

When my cousin, an old Jewish guy, my Aunt tells me my shirt looks sexy it doesnt make me feel alive or do anything for me. People ask me why I can't be myself here and I am phony most of the time. In Miami I was who I was and didn't care, but I don't have that here.

It's also partially no one here dressy sexy or attractive so it would be wierd for me to. I think I saw one East Asian girl on the bus dress sexy and than I had 1 woman that was helping me out and dressed sexy and attractive and I also got this happy feminine vibe off of her like I used to with people in Miami. When I dressed up in Miami I was also happy and responding to them or their culture. There's no reason for me to dress up here and men have gotten angry at me when I was 30 for being sexy. And I was younger and happy in Miami I had a reason to do this, get dressed up and go out dancing. Why would I even think about that here. I am not  happy here. What for ugly phillipino men that get lotso money handed to them with no brains in their heads.

I am not happy around them. I don't get along with people here.

Than they cater to people like my old fart uncle that is a whiny old homo man that gets anal retentive and has to tell you that a berry dropped on the floor of the kitchen and would you please pick it up when you see it because it gives him upset feelings like a librarian man. 

MY BROTHER THAT NARCISSIST

Got out yesterday was feeling good about myself, was happy. Woke up happy because my brother wasn't here. I want to be happy again. I want to get away from them. I was happy and the SOB ruined my happiness.

Spoke to him on the phone and everything was fine and than he says in his gay snobbish fake pussy voice he instantly puts me down and says I was always faster and better at roller skating/rollerblading than you because I am so great as a fake pussy women with no brains in my head. He also said because he is better because he has stronger wrist and ankles and you need stronger wrist and ankles to rollerblade/skate better and he has always had stronger wrist and ankles than me. Because he is so much higher than me. My brother is hard, like a block wall. It makes me feel miserable and I was happy yesterday. Got out and I was feeling good about myself.

It makes me angry and upsets me when he does this because there's no way for me to deal with another angry king penis man with no brains in their heads.

I tell my mother and she's like why do you let it bother you. Why does it bother me what is she an idiot unless you are not alive than of course it pisses you off when my low life brother puts me down and needs to feel like he has a superiorer cockus head with no brains in head.

Fake pussy men are not happy they are the most miserable assholes in the world.

Congratulations! You ruined me day homo. Now I am miserable and focused on angry king penis men with no brains in their heads.

And this is a day angry king penis man is supposed to be out today having fun and meeting someone. instant put down with no brains in my head.