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MY SOCIOPATHIC NARCISSISTIC nasty fucking piece of shit UNCLE

Trying to document everything that happens.
It's like he wants to challenge someone or my uncle wants to start in with me.
I woke up today and already could feel my uncle getting testy because he cant get his fix, maybe????
So at about 12pm I go into the kitchen to get the crockpot off of the top of the fridge that I need to send out, measure and weigh so as I take the scale out to weigh the crockpot and as I do this he starts to come in the kitchen to get his soda so I say I'll just be a second. He leaves and than comes back at some point.
I finish and leave the kitchen or I am in there and I don't remember and he comes over at some point to get into the kitchen cabinet and says something about leaving the stool there so his dumbass will trip over it which doesnt even make sense because I just take out the stool for a second so that I can get the crockpot off the fridge and than put it back up there. and he starts yelling at me like a maniac saying he's not leaving the kitchen until I get out of there like what the fuck is wrong with you.
Oh yeah, the stool was out so he nastily starts to bang it and put it away because it's in front of my fridge and makes him angry with no brains in his head.
I was trying to put the crockpot away so I had the stool out and he is putting it away. So I have to turn off the fan and he is screaming like a lunatic at me he comes over to stop the cieling fan. But the jackass didn't stop it. So it's on that low setting and by now Im screaming at him and kind of shaky so I pull the chain until the ceiling fan stops completely and not just on a low setting where it's almost not moving.

The worse part is that he actually after he raged on me went to MY WINDOW  and scraped it with some kind of nasty disgusting food product. It wasn't his hand. He was loudly scraping the window screen right in back of me with his hands or what I thought were his hands at first. And my mother says "are you sure it was him. Than when I looked at the screen from the inside and from the outside there was gross shit on it scrubbed on the window screen all over the place.

'I go poopy in my own pants and do what I wants"

My mother asked what happened like did I do something. That's right my mother says that's why if I had a scale in my room I wouldn't need to go into the kitchen EVER and deal with him.

It's like gay angry homo raging men are or my uncle has some wierd sick angry obsession with me.

NARCISSISTIC PARENTS AND ME

My mother recently said that she can't wait to go back to her senior classes and hang out with her little friends and have alot of fun and it makes me feel bad. She was so happy and she enjoyed it.
What about me. When she was younger she got to go on these romantic dates and dress sexy. And now I have lived in ----- where I am not happy and I don't get to dress sexy or do any of these things as a younger person but because she gets what she wants that's all that counts because she already did her thing. And I feel with all my mother and Uncles were given they could have done more for me and now I am older and it doesn't matter.
I was happy when I sat on a sunny bish wearing my bikini with a flat stomach and that's when I felt sexy and felt good about myself because I FELT that way.

Narciccist and bi-polar, histrionic.

So I start to turn into my drive way and the cars behind me won't wait they speed around me into on coming trafffic right into 2 trucks. At this point the narcissist starts going bezerk and says let me get out, I am goint to stop them and direct traffic and the narcissist gets very histrionic or bi polar so that when I do turn into the drive way my tire goes up against the side of the curb on the side of the house. So I start yelling at the narcissist and this woulnd't happen if they would get so worked up. And than the Narcissist startss yelling at me "So now you are blaming me", and I tried to explain they made me nervous or I was paying attention to them getting worked up. And the Narcisst yells at me "I wasn't yelling and than starts yelling at me to get out of the car and I'll park the car. Get out of the car. I want to park the car." And they continue to go off the handle while I try to explain to them, but I was so tired I just came in the house.
Honestly I didn't even react to the cars going around me. I just waited until they passed. I only called them idiots for passing me and going around me while 2 fucking trucks were coming inthe other direction, but it's their choice. So when I turned it the Narcissist doesn't take any responsiblity for their overreacion and this is a person that brags about always having their anger under perfect control because they have perfect anger and only get angry in a proper way.
to make matters worse when I parked the car it turns into bribery. Im yelling at her after SHE WAS NICE ENOUGH TO BUY ME POTATO CHIPS FOR $2.50 and this is how I treat her blah blah blah and I get on the defensive and tell her I bought the fridge. I would have stayed and argued, but was too tired for her today. And she the Narcissist starts griping how she doesn't have time for my bullshit.

Reason why Porno is bad..........................

The reason is that you miss out on a human connection or you miss a human connection so that you are unfilfilled even though it's convenient.

I don't want to think about

I don't want to think about angry king shit men anymore with no brains in their heads and be subjected to their spyschotic anger episodes.

He reminds me of Poes the watchful eye except he watches me to make sure not one thing has dropped on his side of the room even when I'm nowhere near him he tries to start in with me and after I told his mother what he was doing. It's too much stress to deal with people this hard. He stretches his leg out to guard his side of the room when ever I am in there.

She comes out and tells me that she told me to clean the floor and this was my fault.  And than she said when homo tranny man threw a fit we worked out a schedule when he could have the room to ourselves, but I wouldn't cooperate and go along with it and she starts verbally attacking me and when I yell back she says go ahead the neighbor upstairs will call the cops on you. Go ahead and she starts getting in my face and raising her hands saying I wouldn't work with him when their was a shedule for room time.

And than I tell her I want nothing to do with him anymore and she doesn't get it. And I tell her I don't want to be around him anymore and more threats she says there's the door than go ahead and leave. The funny part when her mother was in the hospital and a tranny was a abusing the living shit out of her elderly mother she was going go after him and didn't tolerate shit against her great high and mighty mother.

Oh and than she turns it on me. My side of the room and my stuff makes angry gay tranny king penis man hard and angry and volatile. So she says you know your Uncle had all this stuff in his apartment and after all these years he finally realized grandma was right and he should have cleaned up. MORE LIKE MY MOTHER LIKES THAT MY AUNT AND GRANDMOTHER BEAT HIM DOWN AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM. fUCKING CUNT.  AND SHE WANTS MY BROTHER TO DO THAT TO ME AND SLAM ME INTO THE WALL. SHE HAS NO RESPECT FOR ME WHATSOEVER AND I CAN'T TOLERATE HER ANYMORE OR HIM.

LET ME SEE HIM FUCK WITH HIS RETARDED GIRLFRIEND TOMORROW WHEN THE GO TO THE MOVIES. AND TRY TO BULLY HER AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER. FUCKING ASSHOLE WHACKJOB.

STUFF I FEEL BAD ABOUT AND I AM ASHAMED ABOUT.

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