THOUGHTS ON RACIAL DIVERSITY AND MEXICANS WANTING TO TAKE OVER.

I just read something some hispanic or Mexican talking sh-t about Cali that one day they are going to take over Cali. You never hear white people say one day they are going to take over Africa or one day they are going to take over South America. They don't want to or need to go down there and deal with that sh-t. So they want to come here and take over(haahahahaha) and turn this country to sh-t which is why I agree sometimes with the alt-right. Let them have their own white space.

You never even hear white people bragging about taking anyone elses women. Like we are going to take all your Mexican women cause they don't want them. And they are going to breed Natives or Mexicans out of existence so who are the real a--holes and where are these threats coming from.

My mother, throwing things out.

She throws my stuff out and it pisses me off. Because I bought this stuff.
I need my own place where I don't have to worry about having my stuff thrown out.

BABY BOOMER MEN, WHAT PISSES ME OFF

What gets me is that
#1 my 2nd cousins father in law told me he was a lonely and was hitting on me. This pissses me off because he's old enough TO BE MY FATHER. HE had his life, married sexy Argentinian pussy because that was what made him happy when he was younger. Lived a dull boring homo lifestyle and no problems. And I am sure his mind wandered, having happy thoughts when he was younger, but no I don't get that shit. I get what everyone else wants in life. Their wants and needs and oh yes his wife and him were separated when I met him, but this is not my problem. When I 1st moved to N-WORLD and begged for a job he was the typical homo jackass that ignored me.

#2 Ugly shithead phillipino asshole homo man lives a boring dull homo ugly lifestyle. For 16 years while I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING he and my uncle COMPLETELY IGNORE ME. IT'S A TRIO OF RETARDS.

I think why American men are lonely is that they put to much stock into having a woman or they don't have their own thing as all. Or American men think they are great in N-WORLD and aim to high. If you are a 68 old fart loser you should be aiming for 90 year old women at the nursing home. You lived your life did your thing not this is your type.

I am not allowed to have my own happiness or

I just miss the getting out there and the happiness and romance.

Phillipino Ugly Ass Cousin that tried to hit on me. They give nothing and fall in love with themselves.

So I finally thought my Cunt Aunt set him up with me the pretty white girl.

Why didn't my cunt Aunt push her ugly phillipino nephew, who is another miserable cock sucking jackass Son of a Bitch on my other ugly fat white female/cousin by marriage because they both knew each other their entire lives and grew up in N-World in their tight knit fucked up all money community. maybe because they are all narcissist and I am one of the few positive people and both of my cousins by marriage were abused so he needs to get positive emotions from someone meaning me.

I can't even relax.
They want you to be afraid of them.

My other big shit uncle that had a big shit job. Here is what I hate about him and his cunt wife.
He among other men would suck up to her and give her whatever she damn pleases, but I have nothing left to give to these people and his dumb wife is never satisfied and nothing will every be enough for her. So because he pleases her he needs people to please him and dump on but I have nothing for either of them. They have already taken everything they can get from me and whatever they want. The irony is his wife is American and 1/2 Swedish, but I would toss her out with the Mexicans. She acts concerned about Sweden but than in real life she's a cunt.

I would rather have someone nice that treats you right and tries to help you out.

Narcissist Trans Person

Trans person comes home last night crying like a lunatic. He said no one ever acknowledges when he passes a test and cries and should just jump off a bridge last night. I can't handle him because he wants me to jump up and down for him before he gets home. He's in too much turmoil and my Uncle is a manic depressive maniac. It's just really, really depressing and frustrating always being like a punching bag that responds that has to respond to everyone elses emotions because I don't have my own money and my own place. He was a programmer before this.

And now my brother has become really hard or hardened from fighting the system. And he has become hard towards me like I am the scapegoat and I really can't handle it anymore. I want to be somewhat happy. He is locked in his own world either he is angry and pissed and dumping his emotions on me or he is shut down and escaping into his phone world, games or fake gay community.

My mother is working for my other uncle sacrificing herself and she is miserable. As soon as I get up she is on about how "after this she is going out and enjoying herself"

DIANE VON FURSTENBERG AND 1STDIBS.COM

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80'S/90'S MUSIC

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5PddJStucKQ

CRAZY GERMAN GIRL THAT TEACHES GERMAN TO IDIOTS.

THESE ARE HOW TO LEARN PREPOSITIONS FOR GERMAN.  I AM NOT THAT ADVANCED YET.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86g4-tBFQhM

CRAZY GERMAN WOMAN THAT TEACHES PEOPLE GERMAN
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SJh9NzCN8o

Kannst du mir helfen? Can you help me, I need money and a nice house. :-)

More importantly - Ich bin eine echte frau. Ja, :-)

SPREADSHEET FOR ONLINE EXPENSES.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FHS2c7oaow


THIS VIDEO IS REALLY GOOD FOR MAKING AN EXCEL SPREADSHEET
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6H2TLZSzRnY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TlnMq3Wk_A&t=180s

POSHMARK AND TOILET BOWLS

GOOGLE:
http://finderskeepers.co/poshmark-tips/

GOOGLE: how to you thank someone on poshmark
https://shepicksuppennies.com/declutter-with-poshmark-minimalism/

GOOGLE:
how to i thank someone for a host pick on poshmark
https://emmalee6003blog.wordpress.com/2016/06/09/inside-the-mind-of-a-poshmark-buyer/


GOOGLE:
how do i unstop a toilet bowl
https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/how-to-unclog-a-toilet/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddWHeXSxHlo

MISCELLANEOUS

When I leave the door his cat almost scratches me at least twice because she sits on the file cabinet wating for food or to scratch someone and she actually hurts you when she scratches and my brother is calling her puppy and telling me he has her and won't do anything. he has the spray bottle aimed at her and she is not moving so I don't want to move past her. and HE SITS THERE ON HIS ASS NOT DOING ANYTHING WHILE HIS CAT IS SITTING THERE WAITING TO DRAW BLOOD AND SCRATCH SOMEONE. HE IS EXACTLY LIKE MY AUNT. GET THE FUCK UP OFF YOUR ASS AND OFF THE IPHONE AND PULL THE CAT BACK. IT'S YOUR FCKING CAT.

This trans guy wakes up distressed screaming all over the place like a lunatic early in the morning and this upsets me. It's very hard to deal with

NARCISSIST NEED TO OVERPOWER OTHER PEOPLE AND OVERPOWER THINGS BECAUSE...........

THEY FEEL SO SMALL INSIDE AND THEY HAVE NO CONTROL OF THEIR OWN LIVES SO THEY TRY TO TAKE CONTROL OF OTHER PEOPLE LIVES AND NARCISSIST TRY TO CONTROL OTHER PEOPLE'S POSSESSIONS SO THAT THEY CAN OVERPOWER THEM AND MAKE THEM FEEL THE SAME WAY THE NARCISSIST FEELS IN LIFE. Like they have a right TO EVERYTHING YOU OWN EVEN YOU.

They are really pathetic when it comes down to it. Because they can't do anything.
When you try to confront them and get angry at them they tell you to get the fuck out of here.

They can't do anything on their own so they are dumbfucks that have to live vicariously through other people.

DISGUSTED AT MY MOTHER FOR THROWING OUT MY FOOD.

BECAUSE SHE AUTOMATICALLY CLEANS WITH NO BRAINS IN HEAD. I am tired of them walking all over me.
And I have to be nice to this bitch. I try to yell at her. and she tells me that it's her freezer and she can do what she wants with it.
All Narcissist are like this.
She's constantly saying "SHE HAS TO GO DOWNSTAIRS AND START THROWING THINGS OUT."
Well than why doesn't she throw herself out.
All I want to do is get away from them.
My Aunt is the same way.
She has to throw out her nieces stuff. Because they can't take control of their own pussies????? They have no brains in their heads and just take charge by cleaning and throwing things out with no brains in their heads like morons having a knee jerk reaction.

Sometimes I miss when I had a life.

When I was 28 I had a life and used to dress up sexy and go out dancing because that was what I liked doing and I didn't know what was going to happen. Than I moved to the worse place on earth with no job and old fuddy duddy gay Jewish men that want to take care of you cause mommy sucks their cocks for them and gives them money, but they hate sexy women in business because their ugly homosexuals that get afraid of them. It's almost like they anjoy the dead life more than anything in the world. Than it annoys me because he was an ugly old fart that listened to techno to pretend he was hip like if I played in the sand box at 30 to pretend I was 5.
It made me feel good when I used to do this. There isn't anything sexy or alive about N-world anyway and the old fuddy duddies liked it that way.

That little bit of magic.
That's what I needed, wanted, to be happy and that's what made me feel like I was alive.
I never even got to go clubbing or get that out of my system and go through that because angry king penis man homosexual men have to control that part of my life also in high and might dick world.
I don't get anything from men in N-world I am just here for brown men and old Jewish homo fags and there bullshit because they get something from me.. It's like an outside fake happy that I am not connected with.

Nice Painting by Renoir

Pierre-Auguste Renoir (French Impressionist Painter, 1841-1919) A Young Woman 187

Nice painting by Renoir
https://bjws.blogspot.com/2011/02/early-renoir-portraits.html

https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fichier:Pierre-Auguste_Renoir_-_Portrait_de_l%27actrice_Jeanne_Samary.jpg

This is ME, MY DILEMNAS, MEN AND LIFE.

When I used to live in MK it's wierd I was free and I think I was more open minded because I didn't have a lot of burden and I didn't have to carry all this weight on my shoulders so I was free and happy to do what I wanted and had more confidence. Now since I have moved to N-world I am shut down. I am paranoid about men asking me to dance or acting wild and crazy around me and just want to go out and have fun and not worry about men. Men even want to control when I masturbate in N-world. I NEED some time and some space of my own to do what makes me happy and what I need to do. In Mk I felt free to have sex with men, but I was happier,  had fun, more confident and more relaxed. Here in N-World I keep my card up. That's it in Mk I was happy go lucky. I think maybe men were more easy going with me and just in general. I felt free in Mk and I don't feel that way here or feel that way anymore in N-world.

On the other hand I am depressed and have no friends here. So no one just to go out to somewhere when I want to go out and not confident to go out alone by myself. And just laugh and have a good time with without pressure, judgements or expectations.

In Mk I didn't care or people didn't care, but people in N-World are HARD!!!! N-World is very closeminded.

WHY I HATE MEN (NEW ONE)
They never let up on you or let up at all in N-WORLD and THEY HAVE TO HAVE EVERYTHING. Example Asshole Man 2:
I did some paintings that were really good that I created at a Happier Stage in MY LIFE when I was able to feel good and do these things and enjoyed creating painting. So angry homo ugly phillipino GenX man has a huge house in N-WORLd. My Uncle gave him a pig penis job at a major company where he make $200,000 dollars a year in king penis man money. Now, when my latina cunt landlord threw my painting THAT I VALUED in the garbage I HAD NO FRIENDS TO HELP ME OUT OR KEEP IT IN THEIR HOUSE. Just to do me a small favor because you fucking can and you can get the fuck up your ass.
So 1 Christmas I was over my other Cousins and ugly Phillipino man starts hitting on me because my cunt aunt needed someone to dump him on. His mommy is no longer here to suck his dick for him. Of course, I wasn't interested so I rejected his advances. As a man you leave someone high and dry with nothing and than start trying to hump pretty white girls or your cousin by marriage. So I am basically trapped in a cage until you need something from someone in your colosally moron world.

On Homeless:
I can see where it has to be hard because not to sound gross but they don't even have the privacy to masturbate or think that way.