My Mother, Narcissism, Woe is me, Tragedy and Violent Outburst!

So last week I turned to into my drive way to close. It's a very small drive way and hard turn into you literally have to make a 90 degree angle turn. So I was out of it and tired and I came to close to poles on the side of the house and I broke the mirror a little on the edge.

As soon as I did this my mother went into a woe is me dilemna. My mother:

"I don't know what's going to happen now. How are we gonna get it fixed. How can I afford it. Its going to cost alot of money. I am going to have to sell everything I own and give up everything I own to pay for it."
Me: I try to calm her down. It will be okay. Well is it going to cost a million dollars.
My mother: "Well maybe. We're going to have to figure this one out."
I had PMS so I was already feeling bad and depressed and breaking the mirror made me feel more down and when I tried to stop her and her tragic melodrama trying to make me feel bad all of a sudden she screams.
GET OUT!!!! GET OUT OF THE CAR!!!! IM DRIVING!!!! I'M GOING TO PARK THE CAR!!! IF YOU CAN'T DRIVE THE CAR I'LL DRIVE THE CAR! GET OUT NOW! I'M PARKING THE CAR! BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DRIVE!!! YOU CAN'T PARK!!

Oh yes, almost forgot. I tried to stop her before she yelled saying I'll find a way to pay for it. It's going to be okay and nothing was good enough. She was getting on my nerves so I brought up how she hit the car last year while backing up and brushed the car on the side of the building and I never gave her this much hell for what she did. She said "That's different this is going to cost alot of money. It's not cheap."

HOW DO WE ATTRACT SOMEONE IF YOU HAVE TO DRESS UGLY............................

This is athleisure, but how are you supposed to attract someone by dressing ugly.

NOW IT PISSES ME OFF......................

BECAUSE WHILE MY MOTHER WON'T DO ANYTHING FOR ME. SHE IS JUMPING THROUGH HOOPS FOR MY AUNT THAT WENT ON A VACATIION NEEDS INFORMATION ABOUT OUR ANCESTORS. WHILE MY MOTHER BARELY HAS A FRIDGE.

I never gave them the paperwork I had because I wanted them to suffer a little and was hoping they wouldn't find the info, but maybe my mother has. I wanted to tell them they have to find a genealogist and pay them. Just like my Uncle said I have to get out of this place to find work, but does nothing.

Don't torture yourself for anyone. NARCISSIST ONLY FEEL SYMPATHY WHEN YOU ARE WEAK, SICK AND REALLY SUFFERING OTHERWISE.

THEY COME OFF LIKE MANIACS.

Can't remember everything I was going to say, but here goes......................
I felt sick which always makes me feel stronger because I come back to priorities and what's important. Things become more clear when I get sick for some reason.
My Narcissist mother came into check on me once or twice.

She likes to form an attachment to weak abusive individuals. Narcissist only feel sympathy when you are sick. Maybe like mauchaussen, My father was a tragic case, but not really abusive. He was weaker than my mother although he was a tough guy and got into fights.

My mother than attached her self to Elfie. He beat the shit out of my brother while my mother knew but he was abused so he needed her help and sympathy she needed to take care of a tragically abused man and why me and my poor brother should understand.

Her ex boss a black man that went through horrendous abuse that she had to take on for him. She has to take on his pain and angquish. It was really awkward, but everything about him was about the pain of the black cock movement and the serious and trauma of it sort of like the uncle I live with now. He could be very hard to relate to. It's why I like working with Cubans it was simple and I was happy and they were more open, friendly and easier to deal with in general..

And now my brother because I live here she wants to force me to take on her pain and anquish. So when he gets a volatile moodswing he accuses me of something like giving the cat the whole can of food and than they gang up on me so she can please him while he is having a maniacal hissy fit and crying like a madman. My mother walks around saying we'll show her the can of cat food and put it back in the can to show her how much cat food she is wasting. He is lucky that I feed his damn fucking cat while he is at school.

Here where I live now. There are alot of abusive dumb men that want to push their abuse on me.
One of my ex was Jewish and older. His father/uncle abused him and he was tragic all the time or most of the time. So he needed someone to take care of him and take on his pain in life absorb his pain for him I guess. But if I asked him to get me a job in his office. He completely ignores me like I didn't or never even asked. Like he couldn't even ask his manager or boss. Alot of Narcissist spoiled abusers here that got whatever they damn well pleased in life.

Are white people more intelligent and black people more mentally stable????

White people and Asians have a higher intelligence so they are more prone to mental illness while the chosen ones can use to exploit this weakness and white people and Asians have.

Black people have less intelligence so are less likely to suffer from addictions and mental illness. Maybe the chosen one uses them in other ways.

Example:

Take any human being and they are having a fight and one goes into bathroom and won't allow the other to use it so the other person gets angry and pees their pants The other person is intelligent enough to know they were used and abused and hurt and gets angry.....

Now let's say this human takes over the bathroom and locks the cat or dog out so that cat can't use the litter box that's in the bathroom. The cat will just take a shit on the rug outside and not care because they have a lower intelligence. This is an extreme example, but it's the most clear one. It doesn't even matter to the cat or dog it has no affect on them.

My Uncle also the Narcissist.

I wonder if some areas are prone to Narcissism because of money or catered spoiled brats.
When I first moved to N-World about 14 years ago. I had one woman at a Temporary Agency and she was really looking out for me, energetic and trying to get me a job. She was for me and trying to help me out in fact maybe the only person.

I was younger at the time and one of my Uncles had a car that I drove once and I loved because I never got to have or drive a reliable car. I had just moved to N-World and this woman got me a job interview in the state next door and my Uncle could have helped me out and given the car and shown me how to get around, but they did NOTHING FOR ME. Or they always had some excuse like a typical American paranoid that I was irresponsible and couldn't lend me the car, let me use it or even give the car to me. Because I now realize they owned it and it would have meant the world to me and maybe even made a difference and they wouldn't even let me have that easiness. One little thing a car to help me out and it would have been so easy to give it to me to maybe make my life easier and these bastards including my mother couldn't even do that. 1 second of your time or life, just 1 second to do one little thing for someone else that you don't even fucking need.

WHY WOULD AN UGLY SOB PHILLIPINO DICKHEAD THINK I WANT TO LIVE AROUND HIM IN MISERY......................

ARE PEOPLE THIS STUPID IN N-WORLD.
HE IS ABOUT 40 N0W GOT MARRIED AND DID HIS THING. HIS DAUGHTER LOOKS MIXED HISPANIC. NOT SURE IF IT'S HIS REAL DAUGHTER OR NOT.
HE HAD THE JOY OF MARRYING WHO HE WANTS, AND DOING WHAT THE HELL HE WANTS WHEN HE WANTS.
And his stupid response to me is I work hard.
SO FOR THE PAST 16 YEARS HER PUSSY MADE HIM HAPPY. EVERYTIME I PLEADED WITH MY UNCLE FOR A JOB SO MAYBE

I COULD BE HAPPY AND LIVE MY LIFE AND HAVE SOMETHING

ALL THAT I GOT FROM ANYONE INCLUDING MY UNCLE IS INSTANT IGNORE.............OR
FUCK YOU BIG TIME!

TO THEM I DON'T EVEN EXIST UNTIL ONE CHRISTMAS HE IS LOOKING FOR THE MOST SEXIEST WHITE GIRL WOMAN WHATEVER TO SUCK HIS COCK BECAUSE MOMMY AND DADDY GIVE HIM MONIES. AND HIS MOMMY CAN NO LONGER SUCK HIS PENIS FOR HIM.

IT IS SO FUNNY BECAUSE I NOTICED UGLY PHILLIPINO MAN NEVER ONCE MADE A MOVE FOR MY UGLY FAT WHITE COUSIN BY MARRIAGE, AND LIKE SHE SAID SHE KNOWS THEM BETTER THAN ME BECAUSE SHE GREW UP IN THE ALL INCLUSIVE TIGHT KNIT HOMO N-WORLD WHERE IT'S LIKE ONE BIG FRIENDLY ASSININE FAMILY OF RETARDS. WHO DON'T HELP ANYONE ELSE OUT AND DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEMSELVES.

ABUSERS WHO WANT YOU TO TAKE ON THEIR LOVERS ABUSE..............

JEWISH WOMAN THAT MARRIED BLACK COCKMAN AND WANTS YOU TO TAKE ON HIS ABUSE BECAUSE THEY WANT TO HOARD AND LIVE IN MISERY SO THAT YOU HAVE TO CATER TO HIM, BOTH OF THEM OR CATER TO HIM BECAUSE SHE CATERS TO HIM. KIND OF THE WAY RELIGIOUS WIVES CATER TO KING PENIS MEN WITH NO BRAINS IN THEIR HEAD. SHE DOES EVERYTHING FOR THE BLACK COMMUNITY INCLUDING BLACK MEN AND BLACK WOMEN AND EXPECT HERSELF AND OTHERS TO DO THE SAME.
My mother is protecting her china closet because her husband trashes things and they are both hoarders and can't take care of an antique china closet.

MY UNCLE IS MARRIED TO A NARCISSISTIC ABUSIVE CUNT THAT IS LIKE MY UNCLE AND HATES WATER IN THE BATHROOM.  OKAY THESE 2 ARE WHITE JACKASSES, FAIR???? IT MAKES HER GET ANGRY WITH NO BRAINS IN HER HEAD WHEN THERE IS WATER ON THE BATHROOM SINK. SO BECAUSE MY UNCLE IS A NARCISSISTIC EGOTISTICAL FAG HE HAS TO PLEASE HER FOR HIS EGO NEEDS AND HE WANTS EVERYONE ELSE TO PLEASE HER AND GIVE INTO HER EVERY NEED.

THE TRANS ANGRY KING PENISH MAN

CALLED ME A LAZY ASS THAT STAYS HOME AND DOES NOTHING ALL THE TIME AT 5:45 AM IN THE MORNING. HE WAS RANTING AND RAVING AND WHEN I TOLD HIM TO SHUT UP HE ACCUSED ME OF DOING IT THE ONE DAY I DO WORK AT A JOB I FOUND.

PEOPLE THAT NEED TO BE PLEASED ALL OF THE TIME AND PEOPLE THAT NEED TO PLEASE ALL THE TIME...............................

ARE WIERD.....................
First of all someone that needs to be pleased all of the time needs a good swift kick in the ass.
Why would anyone want that in the first place it's like you want people to always respond to your needs wants and urges so that you are the only one alive existing in the room.
If you are pleasing everyone all the time than you are NOTHING. So you are not there yourself and it's like you are only responding to everyone else.
This is why I want to get away from N-WORLD there are too many egotistical pricks like this.