Trans person comes home last night crying like a lunatic. He said no one ever acknowledges when he passes a test and cries and should just jump off a bridge last night. I can't handle him because he wants me to jump up and down for him before he gets home. He's in too much turmoil and my Uncle is a manic depressive maniac. It's just really, really depressing and frustrating always being like a punching bag that responds that has to respond to everyone elses emotions because I don't have my own money and my own place. He was a programmer before this.
And now my brother has become really hard or hardened from fighting the system. And he has become hard towards me like I am the scapegoat and I really can't handle it anymore. I want to be somewhat happy. He is locked in his own world either he is angry and pissed and dumping his emotions on me or he is shut down and escaping into his phone world, games or fake gay community.
My mother is working for my other uncle sacrificing herself and she is miserable. As soon as I get up she is on about how "after this she is going out and enjoying herself"
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