When my cousin, an old Jewish guy, my Aunt tells me my shirt looks sexy it doesnt make me feel alive or do anything for me. People ask me why I can't be myself here and I am phony most of the time. In Miami I was who I was and didn't care, but I don't have that here.
It's also partially no one here dressy sexy or attractive so it would be wierd for me to. I think I saw one East Asian girl on the bus dress sexy and than I had 1 woman that was helping me out and dressed sexy and attractive and I also got this happy feminine vibe off of her like I used to with people in Miami. When I dressed up in Miami I was also happy and responding to them or their culture. There's no reason for me to dress up here and men have gotten angry at me when I was 30 for being sexy. And I was younger and happy in Miami I had a reason to do this, get dressed up and go out dancing. Why would I even think about that here. I am not happy here. What for ugly phillipino men that get lotso money handed to them with no brains in their heads.
I am not happy around them. I don't get along with people here.
Than they cater to people like my old fart uncle that is a whiny old homo man that gets anal retentive and has to tell you that a berry dropped on the floor of the kitchen and would you please pick it up when you see it because it gives him upset feelings like a librarian man.
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