It's hard for me to relate to people where I live. Either they are uneducated or something or everyone is married or married with kids that that's their complete lifestyle. I was happier living in M==== because the people I lived with were full of life and more importantly I could relate to them..
I haven't had 1 job here and people only hire you in N---------- if you fit in with their married lifestyle and have married co--k between your legs. When I lived in M==== people treated you like a person and it didn't matter if you were single or not. It was what you could learn from a person.
When I moved here I was about 28 desperate and had no job and there was an older Jewish guy that was looking for a wife, but it was his strict choice to not help people and have his secluded lifestyle and when he was younger he was so great that no white pu---y was good enough for him. He has never just helped someone out just to help him or her or them. He like everyone else here is focused on their own greedy needs and wants and I never got that happy elated feeling from being around him or old white men. They are so dumb in N==== there's noting you can even talk to them about.
The last time I had that happy excited elated feeling was when I lived in M--- and I saw a cute guy my own age and felt sexually attracted to him. And sometimes a song reminds me of that cute face or happy feeling or something triggers that happy feeling. Here there are no cute guys or they are boring and have no personality. Or they are ugly like my Phillipino cousin and I am a pretty white girl there for his ugly Phillipino needs because mommy and daddy give him lotso money like the old Jewish guy and they have no brains in their heads and job world be wilds.
I don't see how you can't even relate to someone and than you think you want to screw them or date them, but you don't even interact with them according to strict rules with no brains in your head. Because you are high and mighty. Doesn't make sense.
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