MEANDERINGS

sometimes I don't know what to do how to solves things I just keep doing things not solving things and feel lost.

Earlier today the gay narcissist had an attitude. Let me explain he ruined my good feeling and made me miserable and than said he is sorry. Let me explain.
I was looking at my old high school in N thinking I was 14 again and got lost in thought I started think about how I hated this place and how much magic I felt when I first moved to F and the whole experience of feeling alive and happy. I pointed at the school and didn't even go there and than he starts in with an attitude and an argument that I went to this high school for the entire year.
I can't even enjoy the simple pleasures in life like waking up to someone I like or love.
So it brought me back to 14 and going to F or started to and I felt happy for awhile with my memory until he started in.