MEANDERINGS

sometimes I don't know what to do how to solves things I just keep doing things not solving things and feel lost.

Earlier today the gay narcissist had an attitude. Let me explain he ruined my good feeling and made me miserable and than said he is sorry. Let me explain.
I was looking at my old high school in N thinking I was 14 again and got lost in thought I started think about how I hated this place and how much magic I felt when I first moved to F and the whole experience of feeling alive and happy. I pointed at the school and didn't even go there and than he starts in with an attitude and an argument that I went to this high school for the entire year.
I can't even enjoy the simple pleasures in life like waking up to someone I like or love.
So it brought me back to 14 and going to F or started to and I felt happy for awhile with my memory until he started in.

MY NARCISSIST AND HIS MOTHER AND OTHER STUPIDITY.

If I drive somewhere and something happens and the narcissist is with me. For instance, the light turns green and there are 2 people (a black woman and white guy) crossing against the light and of course I wait, BUT the moron guy behind me starts constantly blasting his horn like a maniac behind me and I am not supposed to get upset or angry because narcissist are always calm cool and collected even when they are driving everything they do is PERFECT. I WOULD NEVER DO THAT this is something I think narcissist say alot or something similar because they always have to be clean and above everything.

Now for this morning and dealing with the Narcissist and Trans Narcissist. I woke up late well after the trans Narcissist was awake and I went to get my coffee. When I went to go there the trans Narcisssist rushes out to get his coffee huffy puffy with an attitude at the same time I am getting my coffee. He actually stands outside in the living room doing this. When I confront his mother about it. She says she doesn't have time for this. She has to get out of here and doesn't have time for our squabbles(high and mighty). (Also when the trans person abuses her she complains to no end and expects me to listen). I point out to her he was up all morning and never once went to get his coffee and rushed out with an attitude as soon as I got up and got my coffee. Her response is I got to get out of here and the both of you will be left alone. But he has an attitude I say and will leave and won't have to deal with it. And she says NO both of you will have to deal with it. And than his Narcissist mother goes on about threatening me and telling me that me what's going to happen to my other cousin and my 8 year old nephew if something happens to my Uncles. (In other words they will be up shits creek and left out on the street). So when this fake pussy woman is abusing his mother's instant response is to threaten and abuse me. Most people would say this trans person is wrong and tell him to get over himself.

But his trans mother condones bad abusive behavior and threatens the person who is being victimized by it.

My Narcissist Aunt

When I was 14 we moved and I am 99% sure 1 of my Naricissist Aunts threw my rag doll out, out of spite and Jealousy from adult women and my family had no problems with it.
When I was having financial troubles I wrote a letter to my Uncle pleading for help and his wife (my Aunt by marriage) took it ripped it up and threw it out in the garbage.
Than when we were visiting our grandmother out of state my uncles wife said we couldn't stay with her because we are broke robbers that might take her sh-t, her precious valuables and bullsh-t fancy thousand dollar rugs.

The Trans Narcissist and his Narcissistic Mother

The tranny narc gets emotional now and I just can't handle him and the turmoil in this house.. Anyway in one way I feel sorry for him. He's a man that thinks he is a woman and maybe it was the estrogen, we got into a small argument and than he starts having a breakdown with his mother crying and getting hysterical that he always has to give up everything and he has to give into everyone which is also kind of how I feel. Than his mother comes in and says to the Tranny. Here here's a knife you want to kill yourself go ahead, go ahead, right now and kill  yourself. The guy has nothing, nothing at all in life and his own Narcissistic mother is telling him to kill himself and handing him a knife and she has pulled this bullshit his entire life. He's hurting, angry and in pain and she tells him to commit suicide. Here here's a knife kill yourself and commit suicide if that's what you want to do.

And than she will say she got all of this stuff done today and what has he done today.
The TransNarcissist will start placating his mother and telling her that he will be a good boy and has to start doing things and he knows he has being doing nothing all morning while of course she brags that she got so much done. He says to his mother  "I know I have to get on the ball with things and start getting things done. I know I have not being doing what I am supposed to do all morning." This is after he had his short episode, but when I mention maybe his mother is a Narcissist he doesn't want to acknowledge it anymore.

NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY TRAITS

I think they forget things as they get older even the name of famous parks in big cities and they ask you what Bryant Park is.

Also woke up had acid reflux if you spit in the sink at all they get paranoid, push you out of the way and immediately have to clean it up and it doesn't matter how you feel. It's like they are parnoid of getting in trouble. They'll say move out of the way, I got to get in there. and you come back and if you do anything in the sing they complain and get upset with you that they have to clean it out again like it's a hassle and you are a burden. 

MORE TRANS BULLSH-T AND THEY ARE ANGRY AS SHIT

So this trans bullshit. They need someone to control and dictate to. He's hostile and angry all the time. Well at least I got out for a little while yesterday and I was happy.

Welsh Irish DNA, Culture and Lifestyle

I found these sites on Welsh people and Welsh Things

https://www.gorgeouscottages.com/images-yorkshire-andy-redhead/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Welsh_cuisine