This is ME, MY DILEMNAS, MEN AND LIFE.

When I used to live in MK it's wierd I was free and I think I was more open minded because I didn't have a lot of burden and I didn't have to carry all this weight on my shoulders so I was free and happy to do what I wanted and had more confidence. Now since I have moved to N-world I am shut down. I am paranoid about men asking me to dance or acting wild and crazy around me and just want to go out and have fun and not worry about men. Men even want to control when I masturbate in N-world. I NEED some time and some space of my own to do what makes me happy and what I need to do. In Mk I felt free to have sex with men, but I was happier,  had fun, more confident and more relaxed. Here in N-World I keep my card up. That's it in Mk I was happy go lucky. I think maybe men were more easy going with me and just in general. I felt free in Mk and I don't feel that way here or feel that way anymore in N-world.

On the other hand I am depressed and have no friends here. So no one just to go out to somewhere when I want to go out and not confident to go out alone by myself. And just laugh and have a good time with without pressure, judgements or expectations.

In Mk I didn't care or people didn't care, but people in N-World are HARD!!!! N-World is very closeminded.

WHY I HATE MEN (NEW ONE)
They never let up on you or let up at all in N-WORLD and THEY HAVE TO HAVE EVERYTHING. Example Asshole Man 2:
I did some paintings that were really good that I created at a Happier Stage in MY LIFE when I was able to feel good and do these things and enjoyed creating painting. So angry homo ugly phillipino GenX man has a huge house in N-WORLd. My Uncle gave him a pig penis job at a major company where he make $200,000 dollars a year in king penis man money. Now, when my latina cunt landlord threw my painting THAT I VALUED in the garbage I HAD NO FRIENDS TO HELP ME OUT OR KEEP IT IN THEIR HOUSE. Just to do me a small favor because you fucking can and you can get the fuck up your ass.
So 1 Christmas I was over my other Cousins and ugly Phillipino man starts hitting on me because my cunt aunt needed someone to dump him on. His mommy is no longer here to suck his dick for him. Of course, I wasn't interested so I rejected his advances. As a man you leave someone high and dry with nothing and than start trying to hump pretty white girls or your cousin by marriage. So I am basically trapped in a cage until you need something from someone in your colosally moron world.

On Homeless:
I can see where it has to be hard because not to sound gross but they don't even have the privacy to masturbate or think that way.

WHY I HATE MEN-updated

BECAUSE I HAVE TO DEAL WITH HOMOSEXUAL SHITHEADS ALL THE TIME THAT WANT TO TAKE CHARGE AND CONTROL YOU BUT CAN'T GET ANYTHING DONE.

1) THEY HAVE TO STEAL EVERYTHING. I haven't had the happiness of having a crush on someone due to HIGH AND MIGHTY KING SHIT RULES IN N-WORLD. LIKE MY UNCLE THAT HAD A KING SHIT JOB HANDED TO HIM AND THAN NEEDS TO TELL ME WHO TO FUCK AND WHO TO HAVE A CRUSH ON OR TO BY HAPPY WITH AFTER 16 YEARS OF IGNORING ME AND HIS WIFE TEARING UP MY LETTER THAT I SENT TO HIM BEGGING MY UNCLE FOR HELP BECAUSE I WAS IN DISTRESS. ALL OF A SUDDEN THEY THINK I NEED THEIR NEPHEWS UGLY PHILLIPINO COCK CAUSE THEY GOT NO BRAINS IN THEIR HEAD.

1) i AM NOT INTERESTED IN OLD COCK Irish men in the N area. When I first moved to N over 10 years ago not 1 of them including this old fart my mother's age would give me a job. As a Baby Boomer Man He married Venezuelan Pussy where he had alot of money, happiness and freedom in king penis man land and I met him because my 2nd cousin whos 30 married his daughter and her father comes up to me and starts moaning about how lonely he is . Well he had the money handed to him and those were his homo cock choices. At the time he had plenty of white woman to choose from, but maybe he was a cuck and needed woman to chase him. When I moaned about needing a job he felt uncomfortable around me or his Venezualen wife didn't want young sexy white girls around him or he couldn't handle being a MAN and hiring me for a BS job. Maybe he has never had to make a choice in his life and this is my problem somehow.

Than it's depressing living around men and there wants and needs. Like when I feel horny I should be able to masturbate. When men feel like they want to masturbate they just do it and don't need permission from angry king penis men with no brains in their heads. That's why I put up a wall since living in N where I never needed to in M.k In Mk I was a woman or young adult woman and in N men are not adults here so it is like after I have sex they pat me on the head like a little girl and that's not the only thing wrong with this place. Do men only masturbate when woman tell them they can and than they are tired and not feeling sexual so they get frustrated. This is also extremely depressing.
When I am happy I should be allowed to do things that make me happy and men should back off. I should have some of my own privacy wihtout men. How much homosexual pedophile control do they need.

I always feel like pedophiles are watching me and I have no privacy.

2) UGLY PHILLIPINO COUSIN MAN THAT HAS NO BRAINS IN COCK HEAD AND WORKS HARD. HE SAYS "I WORK HARD"

Just too depressed and tired right now.

NARCISSISM AND BULLYING

SO EVERY TIME MY BROTHER HAS A MOOD SWING HE BLAMES ME BY SAYING MY STUFF IS ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND I CAN'T MOVE AROUND AND MY BROTHER WOULD BLOW UP AND HAVE RAGES.

SO BECAUSE MY HOMO UNCLE HATES ME HE THREW EVERYTHING ON MY BED TO PUNISH ME FOR HIMSELF AND MY BROTHER. It's really sick twisted shit. Even my father would never do anything this sick, twisted and fucked up in life. It's like it's because my Homo Uncle Man feels slighted as an angry king penis man with no brain functions in his head. Now it's like all of their hate is turned on me and my brother hasn't complained about my stuff being all over the floor lately even though it kind of still is.
WHAT RIGHT DO EITHER OF THESE FAGGOTS HAVE TO TOUCH MY STUFF OR TELL ME MY STUFF IS ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND IF I DON'T PICK IT UP MY UNCLE-KING PENIS MAN IS GOING TO PUNISH ME.

SO HOMO MAN FINALLY PUNISHES ME FOR MY BROTHER WHICH IS SICK AS FUCK SHIT BY THROWING ALL MY STUFF INCLUDING LIQUIDS ON MY BED GETTING SOAKING WET. BUT HOMO MAN WAS SNEAKY AND DID IT W

I am still angry about this shit and I really, reallly want to fuck them up and get the fuck away from them.

Imaging being such a homosexual faggot that your control and power in life is bending your homo ass over so I can't get around you in the hallway.

I HAVEN'T TRAVELLED, Not Anywhere

I haven't travelled anywhere in the past 16 years except for what other people want and what makes other people happy.

MY MOTHER FRUSTRATES ME AND INHIBITS ME, and my Uncles HOMO Rage.

I am planning to try to buy a place and I finally got my mother to agree to help me out because reality is that I need to get the eff out of here and this place. But my mother thinks I should find a job first. I want my own place and security and I don't want to find a job first, I will be waiting forever. I want to get the f-ck out of here. She can conform to abusers. I literally have nothing.

I need security that if I do find a job I don't have to worry about a maniac homo throwing shit all over my bed.

I think what started it. I went outside and homoman uncle doesn't like to criticize but he gets anally angry and enraged when there is water on the bathroom floor after someone takes a shower and when he tried to blame it on me that my brother slipped on a wet floor and punched a hole in the door. I defended myself and told his ass off and then he became enraged like a fucking monster jackass with his supressed homo rage and I think he has a crush on my sensitive brother. Uncle homoman likes angry sensitive men and defends abusers. After I told him off my I was nervous I came into my room to relax and a few days later he unleashed his homosexual rage on me and destroyed my bed to punish me a woman because he despised real pretty femine women girls. He did this like a coward when I wasn't here. This is why I want out.

My Uncle cleans his room to show off how, clean, pretty and perfect his homo dick is so he can prove himself to his homo friends, homo landlord and the hispanic guy upstairs. You know, I keep my room cleans, I is a king penis man with no brain functions. To make it worse the rest of the house is a total mess.

ABOUT ME

Went to see someone today. And they made a joke comment about the dentist. The thing is I haven't been to a dentist from the time I was 14 until now. So it made me feel bad because I didnt' know how to take it. So this makes me feel bad on multiple levels but people like my Uncle or family completely ignored me and when I asked for help they ignored this in me even though not getting dental work BOTHERED ME so it didn't matter. He and his wife did pay attention to me when they wanted to dump their ugly phillipino Nephew on me than I mattered.

Also my Uncle says he is stupid and he sets me up with his ugly phillipino nephew, but somehow they can say they are stupid and ignore reality, but I can't ignore my reality.

My Experience with Men
Have not had one job, BUT
1) My cousins Puerto Rican family would hire me at their hotel or try to help me out and he's also looking for someone to marry.
2) My uncle can't help me get a job in any way, BUT him and his wife has the nerve to try to set me up with his ugly phillipino nephew because they can't find pretty white pussy for him. And he is another one that had everything done for them.

SO THIS IS RIDICULOUS THE JEWISH ADL THINKS THAT 33/6= IS A RACIST KKK SYMBOL

33/6 is now a racist symbol according to the Homos at the ADL.

https://www.adl.org/education/references/hate-symbols/336