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MY SOCIOPATHIC NARCISSISTIC nasty fucking piece of shit UNCLE

Trying to document everything that happens.
It's like he wants to challenge someone or my uncle wants to start in with me.
I woke up today and already could feel my uncle getting testy because he cant get his fix, maybe????
So at about 12pm I go into the kitchen to get the crockpot off of the top of the fridge that I need to send out, measure and weigh so as I take the scale out to weigh the crockpot and as I do this he starts to come in the kitchen to get his soda so I say I'll just be a second. He leaves and than comes back at some point.
I finish and leave the kitchen or I am in there and I don't remember and he comes over at some point to get into the kitchen cabinet and says something about leaving the stool there so his dumbass will trip over it which doesnt even make sense because I just take out the stool for a second so that I can get the crockpot off the fridge and than put it back up there. and he starts yelling at me like a maniac saying he's not leaving the kitchen until I get out of there like what the fuck is wrong with you.
Oh yeah, the stool was out so he nastily starts to bang it and put it away because it's in front of my fridge and makes him angry with no brains in his head.
I was trying to put the crockpot away so I had the stool out and he is putting it away. So I have to turn off the fan and he is screaming like a lunatic at me he comes over to stop the cieling fan. But the jackass didn't stop it. So it's on that low setting and by now Im screaming at him and kind of shaky so I pull the chain until the ceiling fan stops completely and not just on a low setting where it's almost not moving.

The worse part is that he actually after he raged on me went to MY WINDOW  and scraped it with some kind of nasty disgusting food product. It wasn't his hand. He was loudly scraping the window screen right in back of me with his hands or what I thought were his hands at first. And my mother says "are you sure it was him. Than when I looked at the screen from the inside and from the outside there was gross shit on it scrubbed on the window screen all over the place.

'I go poopy in my own pants and do what I wants"

My mother asked what happened like did I do something. That's right my mother says that's why if I had a scale in my room I wouldn't need to go into the kitchen EVER and deal with him.

It's like gay angry homo raging men are or my uncle has some wierd sick angry obsession with me.

NARCISSISTIC PARENTS AND ME

My mother recently said that she can't wait to go back to her senior classes and hang out with her little friends and have alot of fun and it makes me feel bad. She was so happy and she enjoyed it.
What about me. When she was younger she got to go on these romantic dates and dress sexy. And now I have lived in ----- where I am not happy and I don't get to dress sexy or do any of these things as a younger person but because she gets what she wants that's all that counts because she already did her thing. And I feel with all my mother and Uncles were given they could have done more for me and now I am older and it doesn't matter.
I was happy when I sat on a sunny bish wearing my bikini with a flat stomach and that's when I felt sexy and felt good about myself because I FELT that way.

Narciccist and bi-polar, histrionic.

So I start to turn into my drive way and the cars behind me won't wait they speed around me into on coming trafffic right into 2 trucks. At this point the narcissist starts going bezerk and says let me get out, I am goint to stop them and direct traffic and the narcissist gets very histrionic or bi polar so that when I do turn into the drive way my tire goes up against the side of the curb on the side of the house. So I start yelling at the narcissist and this woulnd't happen if they would get so worked up. And than the Narcissist startss yelling at me "So now you are blaming me", and I tried to explain they made me nervous or I was paying attention to them getting worked up. And the Narcisst yells at me "I wasn't yelling and than starts yelling at me to get out of the car and I'll park the car. Get out of the car. I want to park the car." And they continue to go off the handle while I try to explain to them, but I was so tired I just came in the house.
Honestly I didn't even react to the cars going around me. I just waited until they passed. I only called them idiots for passing me and going around me while 2 fucking trucks were coming inthe other direction, but it's their choice. So when I turned it the Narcissist doesn't take any responsiblity for their overreacion and this is a person that brags about always having their anger under perfect control because they have perfect anger and only get angry in a proper way.
to make matters worse when I parked the car it turns into bribery. Im yelling at her after SHE WAS NICE ENOUGH TO BUY ME POTATO CHIPS FOR $2.50 and this is how I treat her blah blah blah and I get on the defensive and tell her I bought the fridge. I would have stayed and argued, but was too tired for her today. And she the Narcissist starts griping how she doesn't have time for my bullshit.

Reason why Porno is bad..........................

The reason is that you miss out on a human connection or you miss a human connection so that you are unfilfilled even though it's convenient.

I don't want to think about

I don't want to think about angry king shit men anymore with no brains in their heads and be subjected to their spyschotic anger episodes.

He reminds me of Poes the watchful eye except he watches me to make sure not one thing has dropped on his side of the room even when I'm nowhere near him he tries to start in with me and after I told his mother what he was doing. It's too much stress to deal with people this hard. He stretches his leg out to guard his side of the room when ever I am in there.

She comes out and tells me that she told me to clean the floor and this was my fault.  And than she said when homo tranny man threw a fit we worked out a schedule when he could have the room to ourselves, but I wouldn't cooperate and go along with it and she starts verbally attacking me and when I yell back she says go ahead the neighbor upstairs will call the cops on you. Go ahead and she starts getting in my face and raising her hands saying I wouldn't work with him when their was a shedule for room time.

And than I tell her I want nothing to do with him anymore and she doesn't get it. And I tell her I don't want to be around him anymore and more threats she says there's the door than go ahead and leave. The funny part when her mother was in the hospital and a tranny was a abusing the living shit out of her elderly mother she was going go after him and didn't tolerate shit against her great high and mighty mother.

Oh and than she turns it on me. My side of the room and my stuff makes angry gay tranny king penis man hard and angry and volatile. So she says you know your Uncle had all this stuff in his apartment and after all these years he finally realized grandma was right and he should have cleaned up. MORE LIKE MY MOTHER LIKES THAT MY AUNT AND GRANDMOTHER BEAT HIM DOWN AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM. fUCKING CUNT.  AND SHE WANTS MY BROTHER TO DO THAT TO ME AND SLAM ME INTO THE WALL. SHE HAS NO RESPECT FOR ME WHATSOEVER AND I CAN'T TOLERATE HER ANYMORE OR HIM.

LET ME SEE HIM FUCK WITH HIS RETARDED GIRLFRIEND TOMORROW WHEN THE GO TO THE MOVIES. AND TRY TO BULLY HER AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER. FUCKING ASSHOLE WHACKJOB.

STUFF I FEEL BAD ABOUT AND I AM ASHAMED ABOUT.

So

Narc Tranny Man

I think he maybe on something because he gets really paranoid and starts to accuse me of stuff.
He had a wet band aid wrapper from Curad or some other brand and he said that there was blue liquid on it and asked me if I spilled any blue liquid and I tried to explain to him that the band-aid wrapper got wet and the blue print Logo ink was running because the paper was wet. And he said no and wouldn't believe me. And he said he was just curious thats why and insisted it was some type of blue fluid.

WHEN MY ASSHOLE MORON UNCLE HUMMS AND MEOWS TO CATS IT IRRITATES ME AND ANGERS ME AND TRIGGERS ME.

ZO ITS ANNOYING PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE HOMOMAN BEHAVIOR.  HE DOES IT BEHIND ME LIKE A MISERABLE FUCKING SON OF A HOMOMAN BITCH TRYING TO ANNOY ME.

ALL THE HOSTILITY AND RAGE IS DIRECTED TOWARDS ME...................

ALL OF MY BROTHERS GAY TRANNY HOSTILITY AND RAGE IS DIRECTED TOWARDS ME AND I HAVE TO SIT THERE IN A ROOM WHILE MY MOTHER THREATENS BOTH OF US WITH HER FEARS OF NEIGHBORS AND WHAT MY UNCLE WILL DO TO US.

I BARELY MOVE HIS SUITCASE A LITTLE BIT FROM THE MIDDLE OF THE FLOOR AND HE COMES IN THE ROOM HOSTILE AND GOES INTO A RAGE.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY WANT ME TO DO I AM MOVING ALL OF MY STUFF OUT FOR ANGRY GAY KING SHIT MAN AND THAT IS STILL NOT ENOUGH FOR HIM OR ENOUGH TO PLEASE HIM AND WHILE MY MOTHER IS YELLING AT ME HE PUTS A SICK TWISTED SMILE ON HIS FACE LIKE UHUH IM RIGHT, IM GREAT, IM PERFECT.

This is what my mother said to me "Oh great, now you are arguing with me. You are arguing with both of us. You don't see yourself.
Than she says this to me "It's always everyone else with the problem it's never you that has the problem." Well Im moving all of my stuff out of the room. I have nothing so how much more for fucks sake, jesus christ do you want from me. All of this after she constantly attacks me while my brother is sitting there on the bed happy and delighted that I am being tortured and yelled at because he is getting a rise out of seeing me being hurt.

I do admit it does affect me. I feel like I have to run and can never do enough.

My brother is so toxic and deranged that I don't want to even be around him anymore. He's scary as fuck and because I had my computer in the middle of the floor when he's not there. He threatened me and said I can take and smash up and break your computer next time you do that.

GAY ANGRY KING TRANS PENIS MEN THAT WANT DOMINATION AND FUCK THEMSELVES OVER.

SO THIS IS WHAT THEY ARE REALLY LIKE:

HE PUTS HIS STUFF RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FLAW AND SO I HAVE TO CATER TO GAY TRANS KING SHIT MAN AND PRETEND THAT ITS OKAY. WELL THIS PAST WEEKEND THAT JACKASS TRIPPED OVER HIS OWN STUFF AND SKINNED HIMSELF. AT FIRST I FELT BAD, BUT REALLY DON'T FEEL SORRY. HE GOT WHAT HE DESERVED FOR ABUSING ME AND NOW TODAY HE IS BACK TO HIS SAME OLD WAYS.

I AM NOT ALLOWED TO PUSH HIS STUFF UP AGAINST HIS BED LIKE I DO WITH MY STUFF SO THAT I CAN EVEN PULL SOME STUFF OUT FROM UNDER MY BED TO GET SOMETHING AND HE WATCHES ME VERY CAREFULLY AND THAN TODAY AFTER IM DONE HE PUTS A 10 POUND WEIGHT AND HIS SUITCASE BACK IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FLOOR.

IM NOT EVEN HAPPY HES AN ANGRY NASTY FUCK AND I DON'T EVEN WANT TO DEAL WITH HIM ANYMORE BECAUSE OF HIS NARCISSISTIC DOMINANCE.

THE ONLY ONE THAT CALLED HIS BLUFF WAS MY UNCLE THAT ABUSED MY MOTHER. GAY TRANS KING SHIT MAN PASSED A PLATE OVER ME AT THE DINNER TABLE INSTEAD OF GIVING IT TO ME AND THATS WHEN MY UNCLE TOLD HIS ASS OFF AND HE ALSO DESERVED THAT EVEN THOUGH I DONT CONDONE WHAT MY UNCLE DID

AND MY GRANDMOTHER DIDN'T GIVE TO MUCH LIKE MY MOTHER SAID TODAY. SHE GAVE INTO ANGRY ABUSIVE ASSHOLES SO THAT SHE COULD GET WHAT SHE WANTED AND CONTROL PEOPLE. MY MOTHER EVEN ADMITTED THE OTHER DAY THAT MY GRANDMOTHER WAS A CONTROL FREAK LIKE MY MOTHER.

hahaha DENMARKIANS ARE NOT FEMINIST THEY ARE NORMAL

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2019/may/10/and-the-least-feminist-nation-in-the-world-is-denmark?utm_source=pocket-newtab

UH OH MAYBE THEY ARE NOT NORMAL

They are 2nd when they don't mind wolf whistling after NIGERIA. That stuff is annoying and pisses you off.

ACTUALLY MAYBE THEY ARE NORMAL.

MORE GAY RETARDATIOIN AND STUPIDITY AND BARILLA PASTA

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/features/2019-05-07/barilla-pasta-s-turnaround-from-homophobia-to-national-pride

THE FUCKING SUFFERING OF GAY PEOPLE BEING INSULTED BY SPAGHETTI. IMAGINE THAT CUNT CHRISSY TEIGEN SAYING SHE WANTS GAY PORN SEX IN A BATHTUB FILLED WITH NATIVE AMERICAN ART. FUCKING DUMBASS CUNT THAT NEEDS TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT HER UGLY BROWN ASS.

Enjoying your life and doing what's right for you is not evil or selfish.

With me it's my mother and now maybe my brother. My mother goes around early in the morning saying she has to go through things and throw out her stuff before it rains. She gets very hyper, neorotic and paranoid over nothing. Later I go to give her the mail and she says "What the fuck do you want? Are you ready? I was doing something?" and than she tells me I have an attitude. My only option until I can go LOCO or Low Contact is to train myself to not deal with them except for when it's extremely necessary. And every fight is a challenge. She yellls at me "I only think about myself" and than I say NO, that's you. and my mothers like "Damn straight that's me from now on." So after she accuses me of being selfish and evil she goes on how she has a right to be that way. Doesn't make sense. I don't really think they have the ability to think about anyone else. Even when I am being nice to them I get attitude and they don't even admit they were nasty. One thing I noticed with my mother and Aunt they don't like a clutter or things near them or around them. If you babysit my Aunts cat and buy some food and offer to leave new ketchup or unopened soda at her place. She will throw it out. They automatically know everything like my mother and Uncle. "I know the cats don't like your cat food because it's dry I know they won't eat it and so they just get rid of it."

My Mother, Narcissism, Woe is me, Tragedy and Violent Outburst!

So last week I turned to into my drive way to close. It's a very small drive way and hard turn into you literally have to make a 90 degree angle turn. So I was out of it and tired and I came to close to poles on the side of the house and I broke the mirror a little on the edge.

As soon as I did this my mother went into a woe is me dilemna. My mother:

"I don't know what's going to happen now. How are we gonna get it fixed. How can I afford it. Its going to cost alot of money. I am going to have to sell everything I own and give up everything I own to pay for it."
Me: I try to calm her down. It will be okay. Well is it going to cost a million dollars.
My mother: "Well maybe. We're going to have to figure this one out."
I had PMS so I was already feeling bad and depressed and breaking the mirror made me feel more down and when I tried to stop her and her tragic melodrama trying to make me feel bad all of a sudden she screams.
GET OUT!!!! GET OUT OF THE CAR!!!! IM DRIVING!!!! I'M GOING TO PARK THE CAR!!! IF YOU CAN'T DRIVE THE CAR I'LL DRIVE THE CAR! GET OUT NOW! I'M PARKING THE CAR! BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DRIVE!!! YOU CAN'T PARK!!

Oh yes, almost forgot. I tried to stop her before she yelled saying I'll find a way to pay for it. It's going to be okay and nothing was good enough. She was getting on my nerves so I brought up how she hit the car last year while backing up and brushed the car on the side of the building and I never gave her this much hell for what she did. She said "That's different this is going to cost alot of money. It's not cheap."

HOW DO WE ATTRACT SOMEONE IF YOU HAVE TO DRESS UGLY............................

This is athleisure, but how are you supposed to attract someone by dressing ugly.

NOW IT PISSES ME OFF......................

BECAUSE WHILE MY MOTHER WON'T DO ANYTHING FOR ME. SHE IS JUMPING THROUGH HOOPS FOR MY AUNT THAT WENT ON A VACATIION NEEDS INFORMATION ABOUT OUR ANCESTORS. WHILE MY MOTHER BARELY HAS A FRIDGE.

I never gave them the paperwork I had because I wanted them to suffer a little and was hoping they wouldn't find the info, but maybe my mother has. I wanted to tell them they have to find a genealogist and pay them. Just like my Uncle said I have to get out of this place to find work, but does nothing.

Don't torture yourself for anyone. NARCISSIST ONLY FEEL SYMPATHY WHEN YOU ARE WEAK, SICK AND REALLY SUFFERING OTHERWISE.

THEY COME OFF LIKE MANIACS.

Can't remember everything I was going to say, but here goes......................
I felt sick which always makes me feel stronger because I come back to priorities and what's important. Things become more clear when I get sick for some reason.
My Narcissist mother came into check on me once or twice.

She likes to form an attachment to weak abusive individuals. Narcissist only feel sympathy when you are sick. Maybe like mauchaussen, My father was a tragic case, but not really abusive. He was weaker than my mother although he was a tough guy and got into fights.

My mother than attached her self to Elfie. He beat the shit out of my brother while my mother knew but he was abused so he needed her help and sympathy she needed to take care of a tragically abused man and why me and my poor brother should understand.

Her ex boss a black man that went through horrendous abuse that she had to take on for him. She has to take on his pain and angquish. It was really awkward, but everything about him was about the pain of the black cock movement and the serious and trauma of it sort of like the uncle I live with now. He could be very hard to relate to. It's why I like working with Cubans it was simple and I was happy and they were more open, friendly and easier to deal with in general..

And now my brother because I live here she wants to force me to take on her pain and anquish. So when he gets a volatile moodswing he accuses me of something like giving the cat the whole can of food and than they gang up on me so she can please him while he is having a maniacal hissy fit and crying like a madman. My mother walks around saying we'll show her the can of cat food and put it back in the can to show her how much cat food she is wasting. He is lucky that I feed his damn fucking cat while he is at school.

Here where I live now. There are alot of abusive dumb men that want to push their abuse on me.
One of my ex was Jewish and older. His father/uncle abused him and he was tragic all the time or most of the time. So he needed someone to take care of him and take on his pain in life absorb his pain for him I guess. But if I asked him to get me a job in his office. He completely ignores me like I didn't or never even asked. Like he couldn't even ask his manager or boss. Alot of Narcissist spoiled abusers here that got whatever they damn well pleased in life.

Are white people more intelligent and black people more mentally stable????

White people and Asians have a higher intelligence so they are more prone to mental illness while the chosen ones can use to exploit this weakness and white people and Asians have.

Black people have less intelligence so are less likely to suffer from addictions and mental illness. Maybe the chosen one uses them in other ways.

Example:

Take any human being and they are having a fight and one goes into bathroom and won't allow the other to use it so the other person gets angry and pees their pants The other person is intelligent enough to know they were used and abused and hurt and gets angry.....

Now let's say this human takes over the bathroom and locks the cat or dog out so that cat can't use the litter box that's in the bathroom. The cat will just take a shit on the rug outside and not care because they have a lower intelligence. This is an extreme example, but it's the most clear one. It doesn't even matter to the cat or dog it has no affect on them.

My Uncle also the Narcissist.

I wonder if some areas are prone to Narcissism because of money or catered spoiled brats.
When I first moved to N-World about 14 years ago. I had one woman at a Temporary Agency and she was really looking out for me, energetic and trying to get me a job. She was for me and trying to help me out in fact maybe the only person.

I was younger at the time and one of my Uncles had a car that I drove once and I loved because I never got to have or drive a reliable car. I had just moved to N-World and this woman got me a job interview in the state next door and my Uncle could have helped me out and given the car and shown me how to get around, but they did NOTHING FOR ME. Or they always had some excuse like a typical American paranoid that I was irresponsible and couldn't lend me the car, let me use it or even give the car to me. Because I now realize they owned it and it would have meant the world to me and maybe even made a difference and they wouldn't even let me have that easiness. One little thing a car to help me out and it would have been so easy to give it to me to maybe make my life easier and these bastards including my mother couldn't even do that. 1 second of your time or life, just 1 second to do one little thing for someone else that you don't even fucking need.